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LEAP OF FAITH.


 

Leap of FAITH.

This few days I tend to question my sanity,

why can't things go as I want it, I have sacrificed alot to be here,

I have tried for this adults yet I can't get a hold of my own personal feelings.

The stress is so much for me, yeah I have been taking pressure drugs everyday at my young age (HIGH NORMAL) that's all I get everytime.

Been in the middle of lifes issues fam wise.

I make a move forward and then take 3 backwards.

I'm getting tired already needlessly putting my relationships in jeopardy loosing that one that really cares, I don't quite agree with been remotely controlled, but what will I call this? I'm stuck n tired, I just want to be happy once again. I have helped alot of people but why is mine ain't working.

Yes I see young youth 35, 40, 45 scream my chest or heart ❤️and then give up the ghosts 👻

Blood pressure 🤧

Family 👪pressure

Failed life

Failed dreams

Failed relationships

Who do I trust I do ask myself?

Yeah I me$$Ed up but that's not a death sentence.

Here all I ask for is to be happy.

I have been Lone since and I have worked hard once more again to be here.

I don't want to D!€ not yet.

The doctor said my veins ain't showing no more that it will be from my legs for (IV) 💉injections.

I'm not perfect I know.

But I deserve a chance to be heard.

I need help.

I'm tryna speak up.

 

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