Love Life
Been thinking about really what's this love life?
This question have been giving me lots of nights and days wahala, even day dreaming.
Am the kind of person that believed in facts n figures and I know you might be thinking I do lots of logic nah nah I don't but am a grown man.
But I don't know what I want in a love life, maybe because of my social perception of marriage or been in love. Been in school passed 7 years in a higher institutions because I attended lots of universities, still a single guy that knows lots of ladies and women.
Really I know in psychology department when I was in year one I was role model of some of my faculty guys in definition of a ladies man #how I wish I can bring back that moments and remove myself from it, I had lots of females that I even become a source of hook up and all worked out , while I go back to my home boo less can you imagine? I taught I was a big guy menh,
But it made me loose some good ladies all because I think its nothing but now its something,
Now years passed and I tired to make adjustment, using elimination pattern still no show, I am stucked here I need help !!!!!!
Now am scared too to open up to anyone about what am passing through, some of my guys are getting married and in a long term relationship. But I don't even know how it feels, please can some one make me see how it feels? Now I am trying to hold conversations and all I hear is am taken, in love, about to be taking, single not searching, I need a rich guy.
But you expect me to fight? No am a gentleman.
I don't know really who the kindof person I am, I might like you, cherish you, but I can't really connect to you not because I don't love you but because I don't really know if we really are into it together.
Love they say its a beautiful thing, but how beautiful is your heart to really love and stay loved? Now those love of 70*s and 80*s are no there because were keeping up with time and age.
I get scared when I hear some girl say I love you! Really?
I am a behaviorist and I learnt that what ever you say, do, act out is all because of how you feel inwards or because of social perception or conformity.
I see love as just a wor some girl use to make you go gaga and buy lots of stuffs she need and after wards its a by gone, am a smartass but when it gets to love I double up because its ain't real now.
So what's real now?
Was walking with someone and she said how do you know you love some one Kay?
I said I don't know ooh for real I don't!
I have seen lots of ladies n females, but the ones I like and want to stay with tends to be busy I still try to fix in but the signs Red, so I know I had to go, its called self respect, and for those that liked me..... They never said they did to me.
I do have lots of females as friends but am just a single dude ready to mingle so if you did or did have a crush on me just know I will there waiting for you and I hope time ain't late by the time you beep.
Am not a shy person, just that a reserved, and I am calculative, good and stubborn, I don't talk too much but I write too much
Psychologist and am loving it.
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