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Am i?

Continued.........

Still waiting to see if you would write to me? But you didn't because it seems your so busy with life and forgot to write me..

Now all things have passed away and am now a new creature in Christ..... Still everything seems to be the same. Why I ask myself now the Church is for the broken yet I go there and all I hear is sow a seed! Really with a broken soul will my seed get to heaven like of Able?
Mysterious state I think I am because my mind is so clouded that my words seems so clumsy.
Princess she called me and said bro all you need is God just draw close to him and he will give u rest.
Chiamaka okeke she's been a good pal of me she's always asking are you quarrelling with God?
My choir members saying Kay we have not been seen you, did you travel?
All these questions I don't have an answer for it...... Still don't know why.

All I ever wanted was to be happy I know am passing through a lot but I think I left God out yeah I think so. I was never bitter like this before in my life.
I have seen pains and when I tell you pains I mean real graphic pains, waking up every morning to iyi enu hospitals dressing of my wounds, and nurses using me as life practical but I was a kid then just 9 - 10 active and vibrant just a night changed everything.
But if I were asked to choose a date I will have that accident really I would ever pick a date not in this life at all.
Why would you look at me twice when I drive or walk pass you? Why talk behind me?
You have a questions why can't you just ask me? Why the assumptions?
I know your damn cute, sexy, chubby and what ever you think you can but just bear it in mind that one tick of a clock changes every damn thing about us and gives us a new damn look.

Gloria she said I am not particular in doing things but I guess she doesn't seem to understand me and how my life works. I tend to be there for everyone go out of my way just to be there just for you and and at the end not even a heart filled thank you. But I still rise above hate.

31/12/15 I slept outside just because I helped re-parked an auntie's SUV. In that stone cold night with just my sleeve less, I just pondered on all the goods I have done and the bads I have done too.
Have you ever lost your breath for some Sec try and hold your breathing and see how your whole life will just flash at your face done? That's how I always feel when my blood samples are been taking to the preparation lab for surgery.

I know you will be thinking what kind of life is this?
But let me tell you..... Clothes covers lots of things we hide trust me it really does.

I know someone somewhere, thinks like giving up nah nah nah hey there....... Don't life is fucked up. Your not the worst me neither we all are just struggling to be better.

Some lives on pills, oxygen tank's, life supports aid, etc
I believe love heals all wounds and God saves. It might take years yeah lots of years..... This my tattoo I have had n been with it for 17 years, so just chill and that bestie will come and your drag her into your life and till then write to me.

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